Uneducated Thoughts: The Female Gives Up Politics For Lent

Hey guys.
I'm just going to start this one out by saying
I don't care.
Now, don't immediately think I have become apathetic about my life.
Or have been totally reborn as a nihilist.
No.
I'm just giving up on trying to care about politics.
Now, I know, I know.
It's my country.
It's other peoples countries.
Its the way the world goes and I should participate in making it an ultimately better place.
But
let's face it.
I'm no feminist.
I wish I were a guys sometimes, not because I'm attracted to girls or anything,
but because I just respect guys more.
And I know, that's such an awful, heteronormative, gender-normy thing.
But I just don't care anymore.
Almost all of the people I look up to are guys.
(I'll admit, they aren't the manliest men in the world, but they're people that I honestly respect)
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I read an article in the paper a little while ago
about how it's weirder to see a young boy wearing dresses than a young girl wearing guys clothing
because we still see girls as the lesser gender.
So why would a boy want to become weaker?
I just thought I should share that.
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Speaking of the paper!
I can't even read it anymore.
I used to really enjoy it,
but now all I read is the film reviews, because that's the only escape from.
"Blahblahblah Barack Obama blahblahblah guns blahblahblah massacre"
It's all so depressing.
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Additionally,
(because I'm just gonna spill my guts out all over this post)
I've become so sick of listening.
I mean, sure, I'm still open to listen and help when it's needed.
But I have been feeling so ready to just give that up,,
so willing to force my opinions onto others.
It's kind of a shame.
I feel so selfish.
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I've been wanting an old instant film camera aLOT lately.
(Maybe inspired by this old video I found hanging around on the internet)
But I'm not willing to pay hundreds of dollars for it.
I've been looking in antique stores for one, but I haven't found one yet.
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I've been doing a lot of art as well.
It's a really good way to get your mind off of things.

It's a quote from a
Driftless Pony Club song.

I made this one an hour ago.
And I drew this last night when I couldn't sleep.

(It says 'calm.')

It's really an enjoyable pastime, and it's something I'd love to incorporate into my future.
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Um. Well.
That's all I have for you this week.
Check out my youtube for more videos.
See ya.

Bye.

Uneducated Thoughts: I Want To Dance Like Bobby Birdman (When I Should Be Doing My Homework)

Hey guys.
It's me.
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So, today I tried to work on a school project.
But, of course, with the internet being the giant web of information it is I got distracted.
Really distracted.
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So yeah, soon I was watching videos of YACHT concerts and DPC tours.
I have no idea why my distraction took such a musical turn.
Have you guys ever seen Bobby Birdman dance?
It's kind of fantastic...

I just spent way too much of my day watching that.
DON'T JUDGE ME, HIS HIPS ARE MESMERIZING!
(Actually, not really. It's really more his knees.... And the hair flipping...
Okay, let's move on)
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So!
New art video soon!
(By soon I mean as soon as I have it done.)
And maybe a new sound conglomeration.
Who knows how much I can get done.
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In other news, I'll be going up to New Hampshire this Wednesday.
Yay, eight hour (or longer) drives!
Seriously, though, guys, I'm wicked excited.
If any of my New England familia is reading this, I'll be seein' ya'll there!
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You know, I don't take enough time to acknowledge how much I love doing this.
If anyone at all is reading this, thank you so much.
It thrills me that I'm able to write multiple groups of short sentences about something no one really cares about.
Honestly, this is my light.
So, thanks, for that.
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IN OTHER NEWS.
I have to run tomorrow.
Yayy, running.
I hate running around outside.
Last time I was practically dying after, like, a few feet.
I feel like I really want to exercise, but running is so intimidating.
Can't I, like, jog.
Slowly.
On a treadmill?
(Or one of those bike thingies, then you get to SIT!)
I'd totally start paying attention in gym class!
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Well, in case you can't tell, I'm in a pretty good mood right now.
I don't know what it is, but I just feel good.
Not super great, just.
Good.
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Hey, I took a picture of a light!
(That thing up there's a link)
Yeah, I quite like it.
So, you know.
You can see that.
If you'd like.
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I suppose that's all I have for you know.
See you all on Tuesday. (Videoing early because I won't be here wednesday)
Probably no Uneducated Thoughts on Sunday, since I'll be in NH.
Sorry!



Bye.

HOLY FISHING SHISHKABOBS!

I GOT A SUBSCRIBER.
And, not only that, my subscriber was THE brian WIlliam Green.
That's right, the brilliant photographer.
Excellent sound artist.
Of Shades of Waves fame.
Hot dogs and bean sauce, that is amazing.
I need to get back in front of the camera, because, quite frankly, I haven't talked to one in a while.
And, now that past videos have been brought back to my attention, I realize that I've been (basically) ignoring you guys.
And I am EXTREMELY sorry.
This week, there WILL be a new video up Wednesday, camera or not.
I'll figure something out.

There will be more videos in the future.
I hope you enjoy what's coming from me.

Bye.

Uneducated Thoughts : Bittersweet Frustration (Rewiring a Brain)

Hello, people.
Today has been a weird day.
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I'm talking to my cousin (via internet messaging) as I type this,
and I started to notice my words taking on certain uneducated thought-like qualities.
So I started writing this.
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I'm working on a project for school!
Yeah.
It's tough, analyzing an insanely boring quote.
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I got new earrings.
I had recently decided that I could wear gigantic earrings,
since I have sort hair and a long neck.
They reach my shoulders.
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I stepped on a picture frame the other day.
So I decided to draw on the glass.
Transparency is interesting.
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Possible friendships might be getting somewhere.
Maybe.
I hope.
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I have another meeting with my guidance counselor on Wednesday.
I'm supposed to show her my ideas for things.
Y'know, things for the school.
But I can't help but wonder...
Will this be like Terri?
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I've been watching a lot of videos,
of course.
I always am.
And, to be honest,
it's a little bittersweet.
You watch this videos of people.
People with friends.
People just having a good time in front of their cameras.
And you get this feeling.
This frustration,
and this happiness.
You're happy for them, it looks fun,
but you also want that.
You want those friends.
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I probably need to start thinking differently.
But rewiring a mindset is completely different from fixing a lamp.
It takes time.
And, right now, there's just so much nothing going on.
I've been living in my head.
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Been listening to the Presets, Ratatat, and Iron & Wine.
Depending on my mood.
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I've started editing three different videos since the last upload,
and I hate all of them.
I just can't decide on which one I hate the least.
I really don't want to upload something I don't like,
but that might mean making you guys wait.
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Ooh, Look At Me, Bein' All Artsy-Fartsy (Mature, I Know)

Hey, guys.
So.
My room is pretty cool (in my opinion), but the walls have been blank for too long, so,
I have made things.

"I want to be someones Mitchell Davis. I just want to change someone's life
the way my life has been changed. I want to be the Mitchell Davis of one other
confused little teenager, some day. I want to give them that same inspiration, that
same spark to keep going. I just hope I can do that."

"Art is Perception"

"Now."

These pictures will soon be put up on my "Motivation Wall," and entire wall of my room soon to be devoted to pictures and/or phrases that I find motivational or inspiring.
I shall post more soon.
Love ya, cuties.

Bye.



(Just by the way, you can see the thing I recently made, called a sound conglomeration right here.)

Finally!

Guess who made a video!
It's me.
I did.

Song: Lost - Amanda Palmer

Song at the end: Rawnald Gregory Erickson the Second - Starfucker

(Uncomfortable band name, I know)

Alright, so I'm glad I finished that up, but it poses another issue.
 I would really love to have a schedule, so that I can keep myself on track and not have another issue like this come up.
 I'm thinking (maybe) videos every Wednesday (or maybe Friday?) and then Uneducated Thoughts every Sunday. Anything extra can come in between.
 But I still haven't made any decisions.
 You see, it takes around eight hours of editing to complete a video, so I'll want to have a few days to work on it. (With school and whatnot)
 Any help from you guys would be super appreciated.
 Just tell me when you think would be a good time for me to upload.
 Also, if you want, tell me what, exactly, you guys want to see. Should I do more vlogs? Or maybe a lot of music videos? I've got ideas for other things too, but those ideas can't be executed do to the fact that iMovie is the only program I can use.
Since everything else costs around a zillion dollars. (Okay, maybe, like, 400, but still! That's a lot of money! I'm saving up for a camera, remember?)
Thanks, Apple.

Well, I guess that's all. Leave a comment with any sort of suggestions.
Happy Rosh Hashana.
Love you guys. :)

Bye.

I'm Having Way Too Much Fun With This

Hey guys. Here's another Garage Party video I made.
 It was mainly just me having fun with iMovie, but along the way I've decided that it's a scattered story about a blue-eyed girl who has locked herself up in her house, but eventually learns to overcome her fear of the outdoors and obsession with the computer, and ventures into the outdoors.
 I've been wanting to make a video with this song for a while, and I'm pretty happy with how it came out. (Especially the "getting in and out of bed" scene. That was so much fun to make)

Song: Don't Stay In Bed by YACHT

It's Like a Party, but Without Any of the Fun

Hey guys, here's another quick video.
^Click that. It's a link.


I'm sorry I couldn't upload it yesterday, but I've just been a sobbing mess lately and I needed to take a break and cry.
:)


Bye.

Talking To A Camera

So.
This is just a quick little post.
I made a video.

The song at the end is I'll Be Alright by Passion Pit.
The reason I put in the "Garage Party titles is because my youtube profile page says "Garage Party" on the top of it. i make videos in the garage, so that's what I'm calling these.
Now, I would love to make a new youtube account called "GarageParty" or (even better) change my original screen name to GarageParty, but, you know...
Ever since YouTube joined up with Google,

IT BECAME ULTRA CONFUSING

I just want another youtube account, why is that so hard to accept?




Oh well.




Bye.

Trying New Things Is Hard

So, today I went out into the garage with my camera and took a few videos of myself talking. They aren't great, but I did put the lighting checks and some of the more awkward moments together into this lovely video:

Hopefully I'll be able to do more of this. (And talk louder than the crickets in the background.)

Bye!

The Female Ventures Into Uncharted Territory

So. Yesterday I explored the Garage. And, y'know, as I sorted through piles of old notebooks and tools, I realized something.
It's really cool in there.
 I mean, first of all, we don't keep our cars in there, since the garage is old and has impossibly heavy metal doors. I got in through the cut little side door. Once you get past the dust and strangely large amount of scissors hanging from rusty nails, it's pretty sweet. It's warm (in the summer, I'm not sure what it'll be like once it gets colder) and the smell of cut grass and lawn mower fuel is strangely pleasant. You can hear birds chirping through the edges of the metal door and the un-openable window (which has really neat looking warped glass), but you're still protected from the elements. And, I probably haven't said anything about this before, but I'm not as comfortable around my sister as I should be.
Whenever she likes something I like, I feel like she's more qualified as a fan., as if it's a competition. Which sucks, because she's really great, she just...dominates everything, and makes me feel super inadequate.
But that's beside the point! I can post about that later!
 Yeah, though, the garage gives me this nice sense of separation that I hope, one day, I can achieve just sitting in my room. But, for know, I'll enjoy my safe place in the backyard.
 I was in the garage in the first place because of a dream. You see, I sometimes look to my subconscious for advice. Maybe I think the inner me speaks more truthfully, I don't know, but I really pay attention to what goes on inside while I'm asleep. This time, my dream was about getting my camera, and going into the garage to find the charger (which I lost in the move). Once I had found it, I took a video, in the garage of me talking to the camera and making a video that coincides with this blog. So, this is where my (two) loyal followers come in:
Should I do it?
Should I try vlogging?
 I don't know how good I would be at it, but, y'know, maybe I'll enjoy myself. It's all just part of my quest to find what I enjoy doing.
I think this idea might have been sparked by the large amount of joy and purpose i got out of making a video project for my friend Laura (which I will link to right here). I really had fun editing those clips together. And I think, in the garage, I might have a greater sense of safety. But I dunno. Maybe I'll hate it.
I really just want to find something fun to do with my time and, so far, I'm not sure whatI really enjoy.
Tell me what you think.

I Still Can't Believe it.

Hey! I'm back! I have awoken from my slumber to blog ecstatically about the concert I went to last night.
 A company of actors known as Starkid Productions (casually referred to as Team Starkid) came to Philadelphia last night, and I had the opportunity to see them preform. The tour, called APOCALYPTOUR, involves the Starkids just going to cities and playing their songs, or so I thought.
Here's what really happened. (Taken from my online conversation with a close friend)

 "Well, the whole idea was that they [the Starkids] were archeologists, who found an ancient Mayan ruin telling of the apocalypse, and a group of people called the Dikrats (Starkid backwards) who, by reading the inscription aloud, would awaken the god of chaos and death. The god (played by Jim Povolo) is called Margaret, and plans to destroy the world. But, as it turns out, the Starkids still have one last chance at saving the planet! Margaret is not only the god of chaos and death, but also the god of musical theatre. 

Along the way to saving our world, they sacrifice Joey Richter by tearing out his heart, almost give up, and finally end up earning a new Starkid!

This whole idea is sprinkled lavishly with witty humor and fun songs, keeping the audience excited and loud."

Yep. It's true (especially the loud part), and I'm glad it had a storyline! The show was an amazing experience, and I'm still in shock that I actually went.  It was totally worth the money, the long drive, and the waiting.

And, believe me, there was a lot of waiting.

 The line was a massive beast that stretched a long way from the entrance to the TLA (Theatre of The Living Arts), filled with girls from ages 11-27, as well as a few guys. We took up the whole sidewalk!

The entrance is that little swirly thing, labeled "TLA", and the black line indicates the group of people that wound through a few streets. This line, about four people thick, was gigantic, and I (indicated by the red dot) was right near the middle. It was a bit boring, but I didn't mind. The girl in front of us was nice, and, believe me, the show was well worth the wait!

 We stood on a balcony, getting a really good view over and/or in between the heads of the people in front of us, who we later learned were actually one of the actors' family! All in all, the show was fantastic and, even though we didn't get in on the balloon smacking, confetti catching action, we were glad to be able to see! I actually still can't believe I actually went, and it wasn't just a video I watched online. That whole "They're real people, oh my god!" feeling is just beginning to wear off.

All in all, it was a fantastic experience, and I'm glad to have gone.

Hey Look, I Took Some Photographs.

Hey, why not start with a semi-disturbing one? I actually got hold of a red pen during science class. And I was really bored.

Are the spirits trying to contact me, or do I just need to clean off my computer screen? Maybe both....

Ouchies.

What do you think this is? It's actually not a super zoomed-in image of the above picture or  any other wound. I actually ate that for dinner a little while ago. It's lasagna. 

I is watching you....

Look, it's my cat again. Isn't he just a little angel?

That's our other cat, Isis. My family thinks she's so much nicer than Captain, but I'm not convinced. I'm pretty much positive she's planning to take over the known universe, and that's her plotting face.

Plotting face.

The Potato Slayer and a Cat (Because I have nothing better to post about.)

     I peeled some potatoes last night. Man, I peeled the heck out of those potatoes. You should've seen me. I was like The Potato Slayer.  

        Yeah, it was pretty awesome. Just to emphasize my sheer awesomeness, I'm going to draw it again.

Now I'm a Ninja.

And again

And now I'm a very scary person with a battle axe (Apparently potatoes can bleed, too.)

The first one is definitely the most realistic, but the rest were fun to draw. 

       I took some pictures the other day! That's right, real pictures, not drawings of stick figures on Illustrator. Here they are.

This guy kept staring at me.

Doesn't he have a nice smile?

That's my cat, Captain Clifford Crownunsheild, kissing a My Little Pony. They had a long and complicated relationship.

Such a captivating expression.

   It's usually hard to get a good picture of Captain Clifford, but he was being a good subject that day. Maybe he was in a good mood.

Henry The Giant- Episode 2, The Lost Ones

I'm going to name all the episodes from now on.

It's All Part Of The Plan

            So, if you didn't know, I'm writing a comic. I just finished the first page. It's really not that good, but it's my first one, so I'd say it's alright. I'm probably going to keep the comic going, since it's a large part of my master plan to conquer the universe. So, yeah. I was going to make another page for the comics, but (since you can't make posts on each page) I'll just post on this, and make everything a lot harder for you. Especially since you will all be destroyed. Eventually.

The Squid and The Unicorn

The squid sat at his dining table, enjoying a healthy meal. The unicorn’s helpless screams did not make their way into the his head, as the squid had no ears. The squid could see the unicorn’s struggles against his guards, but he chose to focus his single eye on his food instead. The squid liked to eat unicorn tail-hair. It required much work, and the unicorn would screech helplessly, but the absent-minded squid believed it was worth it. Eventually, the squid would let the unicorn go. But for now he continued to chew on the silky fibers of the unicorn’s tail, which was quite an amazing feat, since the squid had no mouth to chew with, and no esophagus to swallow with.

            After everything was over, the unicorn would sit in an easy chair in a corner of the fuzzy room, thinking thoughts. Some of the thoughts were sad but many were not. Often he got a wicked headache and had to soothe the bunions on his feet with heated mentholated waters that filled the room with an odor reminiscent of holidays past. Even when he appeared to be doing nothing, even when a brain scan would have come up with nothing, he was, in fact, planning his revenge against the the evil squid, whose one brown eye haunted his days and nights. "I am going to get you, squid" was the most common sentence that passed through his mind.

            So the unicorn continued to plan, and the squid continued to chew. After a while, a loosely formulated plan made its way into the unicorn's mind, and he called to his magical robot waitress who he had named Hannah. "Hannah," he said. "I need some C₆H₁₂O₆ and a banana, stat." Hannah rolled her eyes and sighed. "Yeah, whatever." When Hannah returned with a vat of glucose and his banana, he carefully took them from her. The unicorn looked under the door of his fuzzy room and opened it, cautiously stepping out of his fluffy slave chamber.

The unicorn crept his way into the squid’s room, which was kept very cold so the squid’s pet intergalactic piranha, named Fred, didn’t spontaneously combust. Fred stared at the unicorn as he crept inside. Fred opened his left eye to look, then his right eye, he even opened the third eye he kept only for emergencies.  The unicorn made his way towards the squid, who was sleeping upside-down on what looked like a very large coat-hanger, when Fred opened his mouth, revealing thousands of tiny unicorn souls, wailing in despair. The unicorn was horrified, but decided to keep going. He placed the banana in his vat of glucose and watched as the banana melted into a toxic liquid, which explained why the banana was magical, since an average banana wouldn’t have melted. The unicorn put his mixture on the squid’s bedside table, with a note under it that said, “I made you a smoothie, enjoy!”  The unicorn began to walk away, when a sticky tentacle suddenly shot from Fred’s left eyetooth. The tentacle wrapped around the unicorn’s horn and yanked him into Fred’s waiting jaws, which had unhinged to reveal a dark tunnel. Fred closed his mouth, blocking out any light from the unicorn’s eternal prison.

The next day, the squid drank his “smoothie”, and was horrified as black spots sprung up all over his body. The squid died almost instantly, and his reign of terror ended. With no one to control it, the thermostat quickly turned up the temperature, ending the life of Fred and millions of tormented unicorns. The rest of the unicorns lived happily, and the thermostat never again had to worry about being cold.

You Can't Even Comprehend The Awesomeness Of This Post

             Hello, and welcome back to another post! (Now I'm going to post too often for anyone to follow.) So....How's it going? Today I played The Legend Of Zelda for about, oh, TWO HOURS.

Don't worry about the drool, I'm hyperbolizing.

So, after two hours I decided I should probably do something! So I stood up...

The only exercise I really got was from running upstairs

...and bolted upstairs to my room! (Wow, that was tiring.) I sat in my chair, turned on my computer, and did my basic everyday procedures (check email, charge ipod, etc.) Then I opened my blog page (and Illustrator) and decided "I'm gonna post again! Why not!" (of course I didn't think of "You have more important things to do", "Really? You just played Zelda for an hour!", or even "You don't even have anything to post about!") And that's where I am now.

             BUT, I have an idea! I will collaborate with all of my faithful readers (all 4 of you [maybe less]) to create an Awesome Short Story! So, what I need you (my faithful readers) to do, is put a character or sentence or paragraph or SOMETHING in the comments that will contribute to the story. The story can be serious or funny (although I imagine it will come out very strange), but it can't be TOO long. So please don't comment with a ten-page essay. Yup. Please try to contribute (I don't want to write the whole thing), and I'll be back soon with either a story, or another post like this!

Here is a squid.

"I'm just a squid."

Other Things I Enjoy Doing

 Just in case I've ben worrying you with all my talk of roleplaying games (by the way, only 79 more days until I get the Vindicator of They Class- but who's counting?), I would like to reassure you that I do other things with my life as well, such as...
1.Write-Yup. I like to write stuff. Writing stuff is very fun. I'm almost finished one of my writing things, then I'll just need to either a) proofread it, or b) hide it away in some folder on my computer. I'll probably end up doing the latter of the two, because I'm just that kind of person, and I'm not as proud of that one as I am of my other ones.
2. Make Videos-Okay, this isn't really something I do (necessarily). It's more something I would love to do, if I had video camera. I've got all the ideas, though. They're all up there in my skull, hiding away. I made a little slideshow type thing, with lyrics to a song, and just watching the words and the music match up gave me an extreme feeling of happiness. But that doesn't really count. I'll probably make another one anyway. Animation is a cool idea too (since I love to imagine my drawings moving or dancing around), but I probably won't be able to do that (it doesn't bother me as much as the video thing). Still, I'm going to find our camera, or get one for Christmas (hint, hint), so I can try to make some of my ideas happen.
3. Draw-I also enjoy drawing. I like drawing people, eyes, hands, and stick figures playing instruments or looking like real people (I'll try to scan you a picture of that sometime).
4. Read Other Blogs-I don't actually read too many other blogs, just these two.
Trapped By Monsters
and
Insanity
Trapped by Monsters is a joint blog of multiple UK young-adult writers. My favorite author, Sam Enthoven participates in the blog.
Insanity is my cousin's blog. Not much else to say than that.

The Strange Phenomenon, In Which Most Of The Year's Holiday Are Flattened Into A Short Three Months, And Those Months Go By All Too Fast.

 As you probably already know, Halloween has passed. Halloween is one of my favorite holidays, but I only like the dressing up aspect of it.I don't really love being afraid, and taking candy from strangers makes me feel awkward and terribly impolite. (Because I am such a dainty little female) It was nice.
 So, up next is Thanksgiving. I like Thanksgiving. Getting together with family is always fun, and I always enjoy food.
 And then there's Christmas! I like the presents, reading stories the night before, and the overall sense of joy. I like decorating the Christmas tree, too. The one bad thing about this holiday is all the annoying songs! I mean, Christmas is nice and all, but enough is enough. At least the people in my neighborhood are too busy riding dirt bikes to worry about singing songs and spreading joy.
What's your favorite fall/winter holiday?