Uneducated Thoughts: The Female Gives Up Politics For Lent

Hey guys.
I'm just going to start this one out by saying
I don't care.
Now, don't immediately think I have become apathetic about my life.
Or have been totally reborn as a nihilist.
No.
I'm just giving up on trying to care about politics.
Now, I know, I know.
It's my country.
It's other peoples countries.
Its the way the world goes and I should participate in making it an ultimately better place.
But
let's face it.
I'm no feminist.
I wish I were a guys sometimes, not because I'm attracted to girls or anything,
but because I just respect guys more.
And I know, that's such an awful, heteronormative, gender-normy thing.
But I just don't care anymore.
Almost all of the people I look up to are guys.
(I'll admit, they aren't the manliest men in the world, but they're people that I honestly respect)
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I read an article in the paper a little while ago
about how it's weirder to see a young boy wearing dresses than a young girl wearing guys clothing
because we still see girls as the lesser gender.
So why would a boy want to become weaker?
I just thought I should share that.
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Speaking of the paper!
I can't even read it anymore.
I used to really enjoy it,
but now all I read is the film reviews, because that's the only escape from.
"Blahblahblah Barack Obama blahblahblah guns blahblahblah massacre"
It's all so depressing.
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Additionally,
(because I'm just gonna spill my guts out all over this post)
I've become so sick of listening.
I mean, sure, I'm still open to listen and help when it's needed.
But I have been feeling so ready to just give that up,,
so willing to force my opinions onto others.
It's kind of a shame.
I feel so selfish.
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I've been wanting an old instant film camera aLOT lately.
(Maybe inspired by this old video I found hanging around on the internet)
But I'm not willing to pay hundreds of dollars for it.
I've been looking in antique stores for one, but I haven't found one yet.
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I've been doing a lot of art as well.
It's a really good way to get your mind off of things.

It's a quote from a
Driftless Pony Club song.

I made this one an hour ago.
And I drew this last night when I couldn't sleep.

(It says 'calm.')

It's really an enjoyable pastime, and it's something I'd love to incorporate into my future.
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Um. Well.
That's all I have for you this week.
Check out my youtube for more videos.
See ya.

Bye.

I Never Want To Let Go of This

So,
I've
been
thinking.
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Those were all links to videos.
And, sometimes, watching videos makes me think about my future.
I have dreams for my future, y'know.
They might be different from other people's dreams, though.
Everyone has different dreams.
I'd like to have a successful future.
Living in a biggish apartment or small home by myself.
Most likely with a cat.
I don't think much about other people in my life.
I mean, maybe I do.
But I don't think it's like others at my school.
They all want boyfriends and girlfriends and marriages.
I just....
I don't really care.
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I've been okay though.
Not excited for school tomorrow,
but Christmas break is coming up.
That should be fun.
A friend might come over and hang out.
I hope we have fun.
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Sometimes I wish I was sick, just so I could miss school.
Which is sad.
I know I should enjoy being young.
But I honestly just want to get out of school.
Of course, after highschool there's college.
College is the only part of school I've ever heard was fun.
I don't know.
It's' school, but you have to stay in a dorm with people you don't know.
And I've heard that people in college don't have very good hygiene.
Great.
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I really hope this doesn't pass.
I love making videos and doing art and stuff.
And every time I think about my dream future I just get so happy.
I want that to happen.
I don't want this whole video thing to be 'just a phase'
because I feel like it isn't.
I feel like it's my passion.
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Well, those were my thoughts.
See you again on Wednesday.

Bye.