Uneducated Thoughts : Bittersweet Frustration (Rewiring a Brain)

Hello, people.
Today has been a weird day.
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I'm talking to my cousin (via internet messaging) as I type this,
and I started to notice my words taking on certain uneducated thought-like qualities.
So I started writing this.
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I'm working on a project for school!
Yeah.
It's tough, analyzing an insanely boring quote.
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I got new earrings.
I had recently decided that I could wear gigantic earrings,
since I have sort hair and a long neck.
They reach my shoulders.
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I stepped on a picture frame the other day.
So I decided to draw on the glass.
Transparency is interesting.
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Possible friendships might be getting somewhere.
Maybe.
I hope.
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I have another meeting with my guidance counselor on Wednesday.
I'm supposed to show her my ideas for things.
Y'know, things for the school.
But I can't help but wonder...
Will this be like Terri?
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I've been watching a lot of videos,
of course.
I always am.
And, to be honest,
it's a little bittersweet.
You watch this videos of people.
People with friends.
People just having a good time in front of their cameras.
And you get this feeling.
This frustration,
and this happiness.
You're happy for them, it looks fun,
but you also want that.
You want those friends.
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I probably need to start thinking differently.
But rewiring a mindset is completely different from fixing a lamp.
It takes time.
And, right now, there's just so much nothing going on.
I've been living in my head.
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Been listening to the Presets, Ratatat, and Iron & Wine.
Depending on my mood.
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I've started editing three different videos since the last upload,
and I hate all of them.
I just can't decide on which one I hate the least.
I really don't want to upload something I don't like,
but that might mean making you guys wait.
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Uneducated Thoughts: Real Feminism

Hey guys.
It's me again.
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I got a new cardigan.
It's grey.
I quite like it.
My granddad used to wear lot of cardigans.
Maybe it's hereditary.
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There's a really cool documentary coming out.
I'm real excited about it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCAAf7y8FOg&feature=g-user-lik
Can't wait 'till I get to see it.
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This is one of those days when I feel like a true feminist.
Putting up with cramps without taking painkillers.
(Okay, fine.
My stomach can't handle the pills.
But still,
I'm tough.)
Top that, Ani DiFranco.
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Today, I'm listening to Amanda Palmer.
Pretty catchy stuff.
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We don't have school tomorrow.
It's Rosh Hashana.
I'm not Jewish.
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It's sunny out today.
Almost fall, though.
Pretty excited.
I love the food in fall.
Pumpkin-flavored anything is pretty sweet.
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Well, I guess that's all I have to say.
Enjoy my stream of consciousness.

Bye.