Uneducated Thoughts : Bittersweet Frustration (Rewiring a Brain)

Hello, people.
Today has been a weird day.
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I'm talking to my cousin (via internet messaging) as I type this,
and I started to notice my words taking on certain uneducated thought-like qualities.
So I started writing this.
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I'm working on a project for school!
Yeah.
It's tough, analyzing an insanely boring quote.
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I got new earrings.
I had recently decided that I could wear gigantic earrings,
since I have sort hair and a long neck.
They reach my shoulders.
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I stepped on a picture frame the other day.
So I decided to draw on the glass.
Transparency is interesting.
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Possible friendships might be getting somewhere.
Maybe.
I hope.
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I have another meeting with my guidance counselor on Wednesday.
I'm supposed to show her my ideas for things.
Y'know, things for the school.
But I can't help but wonder...
Will this be like Terri?
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I've been watching a lot of videos,
of course.
I always am.
And, to be honest,
it's a little bittersweet.
You watch this videos of people.
People with friends.
People just having a good time in front of their cameras.
And you get this feeling.
This frustration,
and this happiness.
You're happy for them, it looks fun,
but you also want that.
You want those friends.
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I probably need to start thinking differently.
But rewiring a mindset is completely different from fixing a lamp.
It takes time.
And, right now, there's just so much nothing going on.
I've been living in my head.
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Been listening to the Presets, Ratatat, and Iron & Wine.
Depending on my mood.
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I've started editing three different videos since the last upload,
and I hate all of them.
I just can't decide on which one I hate the least.
I really don't want to upload something I don't like,
but that might mean making you guys wait.
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Uneducated Thoughts : "A New Medium: Panda Pornography"

Hey guys.
It's me.
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So,
just recently,
my camera battery came in the mail.
There's just one tiny little problem.
The camera still doesn't work.
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I've been listening to a lot of Pandora lately.
I think it's kinda neat.
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I've also been a bit bored.
It's not that I don't have ideas.
I have plenty of ideas.
But they're all sitting around and getting stale.
I have no means of executing them.
Soon, they'll start rotting.
Gross.
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My efforts to make a friend are going okay.
We still haven't had any successful conversations yet,
but we try.
We're getting there.
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YACHT is going on tour.
Yeah.
With The Presets.
So that's pretty neat.
Too bad the closest place they're coming to is New York.
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I wish I had something interesting to say.
But you guys probably don't care anyway.
Because you're only my family.
(Must. Make. Friends.)
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I've been considering expanding my "Female Approves Of"
Should I?
I probably will anyway.
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So, I had an interesting little altercation with my sister the other day.
Somehow, something about blogging came up.
She told me I should make a blog.
After a long, awkward, pause, I said,
"I already have one."
Then she accused me of using it to post Mitchell Davis/Panda Bear pornography.
And that was it.
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I don't know why it scares me so much that she could find out.
It just does.
Oh well.
She will eventually.
(Probably soon)
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I feel like I'm not doing anything.
I mean, I am doing things.
The other day I drew my self.
And I've been doing a lot of 'video research'.
(AKA: Watching Bath Boys videos and trying to convince myself it's a good use of my time.)
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I'm still not sure what wall to make the inspirational one.
I've been wanting to make another page, but I need a quote.
And ideas, you guys?
I need to read something inspirational.
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Well, I guess that's it.
I'm gonna go watch Youtube and wait for money to magically appear in my room.
See you on wednesday.


Bye.

Talking To A Camera

So.
This is just a quick little post.
I made a video.

The song at the end is I'll Be Alright by Passion Pit.
The reason I put in the "Garage Party titles is because my youtube profile page says "Garage Party" on the top of it. i make videos in the garage, so that's what I'm calling these.
Now, I would love to make a new youtube account called "GarageParty" or (even better) change my original screen name to GarageParty, but, you know...
Ever since YouTube joined up with Google,

IT BECAME ULTRA CONFUSING

I just want another youtube account, why is that so hard to accept?




Oh well.




Bye.

Just A Quick Update

Hi guys.
It's me.
I just wanted to do a little blogging so that I don't forget.
I know that you guys want me to post something of substance, and I'm really sorry i haven't been doing that.
I just really want to get my camera charger.

So. The female's taking a fencing class at a college this week.
Did I mention this particular college gym happens to have no air-conditioning?
And, GOSHDARNIT is it hot!
I mean, you don't know hot until you've done strenuous physical activity in a large room without air conditioning, among 10 other people, all wearing the athletic equivalent of a winter jacket.

In other news....
I've recently made a significant change to my appearance (aka, dyed my hair) and become much more confident. I can now stare at myself in the mirror and not be disgusted.
Good job, female! You keep that positive attitude!

Hm.
Well.
I guess I'l leave you with this:

Gosh freaking darnit'

Bye! 

What I've Been Up To

(I'm back, blogging on the blogisphere)

So, I'd just like to start this post off with a complaint:

What the hellck, Blogger? I trusted you!

There are numbers now!? Also, this was the easiest one I could find, the other ones were completely illegible.

How could you do this to me?

Okay, enough whining...

I've moved to another state! Yeah...I should have posted about that earlier.

But I didn't! :D

So... The other night my family and I were sitting around outside, talking while a candle burned in the middle of the table. I was playing with the wax when I decided to take some pictures with my mom's iPhone. I put them together in a little slideshow thingy, and put some music in the background (because, hey, music makes everything more epic, right?)

I'm sorry if it doesn't play correctly, the 'upload a video' feature is really confusing".


The song in the background is Very Scared by Those Guys. It's the most ominous rap song I listen to. 
If you're in my immediate family, you know of the crazy theory my sister has dreamt up that I only listen to YACHT. I'm hoping that this will help erase any concerns you have about that.


Also, what do you think of the new look? It might change a bit, but I think it's pretty cool.


Hm...Well.
I don't think there's much else to talk about. 
More posts soon. (hopefully)
Uh.....
Bye.