Uneducated Thoughts : Bittersweet Frustration (Rewiring a Brain)

Hello, people.
Today has been a weird day.
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I'm talking to my cousin (via internet messaging) as I type this,
and I started to notice my words taking on certain uneducated thought-like qualities.
So I started writing this.
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I'm working on a project for school!
Yeah.
It's tough, analyzing an insanely boring quote.
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I got new earrings.
I had recently decided that I could wear gigantic earrings,
since I have sort hair and a long neck.
They reach my shoulders.
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I stepped on a picture frame the other day.
So I decided to draw on the glass.
Transparency is interesting.
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Possible friendships might be getting somewhere.
Maybe.
I hope.
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I have another meeting with my guidance counselor on Wednesday.
I'm supposed to show her my ideas for things.
Y'know, things for the school.
But I can't help but wonder...
Will this be like Terri?
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I've been watching a lot of videos,
of course.
I always am.
And, to be honest,
it's a little bittersweet.
You watch this videos of people.
People with friends.
People just having a good time in front of their cameras.
And you get this feeling.
This frustration,
and this happiness.
You're happy for them, it looks fun,
but you also want that.
You want those friends.
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I probably need to start thinking differently.
But rewiring a mindset is completely different from fixing a lamp.
It takes time.
And, right now, there's just so much nothing going on.
I've been living in my head.
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Been listening to the Presets, Ratatat, and Iron & Wine.
Depending on my mood.
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I've started editing three different videos since the last upload,
and I hate all of them.
I just can't decide on which one I hate the least.
I really don't want to upload something I don't like,
but that might mean making you guys wait.
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Uneducated Thoughts: Disc Jockey > DJ

Okay, it's me
And let me just make something clear.
Disc Jockey > DJ
I mean, come on.
Isn't it obvious.
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Ordered a new camera battery in the mail today.
Hopefully, it'll come soon.
Yay for that.
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Meanwhile, I've been thinking about getting a tripod.
In case you couldn't tell, a bookshelf isn't the best place to put a camera.
I can't see what I'm filming.
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Also,
saving money is hard.
Especially without a source of income.
Ah, well.
This is not the time to whine.
Good things shall happen!
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Like friends, for instance.
I now know a girl with one of the catchiest names ever.
And she seems pretty cool.
Friendship?
I sure hope so.
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I'm gonna try the new schedule, but who knows.
Maybe I'll change my mind.
For know, though
I'm working with what I've got.
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I can't wait until I can get that battery and do my channel justice.
There's just too much suckish stuff on there.
I need to make something better.
I just need to.
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Well, I suppose that's it.
I have off school wednesday,
so I'll try to upload a video.
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Bye.